hello all you skinny bitches ;)
the party yesterday was a real succes! i have been working as cashier for one hour and then got in with a friend for a while, didnt wanna stay too long. i havent been drinking, cause of the calories and also because i didnt feel like (how weird is that??) but i regreted it a little, the music was great and the club was really full- didnt expect that. and you know what girls? i'm geeting prettier aka thinner.
i was used to boys watching me, i mean boys always look at girls with long blonde hair.. but when i was fatter, they didnt really try to talk to me or so. and yesterday it was crazy! like 5 guys tried to flirt with me! yay! :) (i dont care about those guys, not the slightes. but obviously i look better meanwhile! SUCCES!)
today i have been a really good girl to make up for yesterday.
* small portion of my special muesli, sonsisting of yoghurt, few teaspoons of cereals and special k and half a small apple (~ 130cals)
* a few french fries with ketchup (~ max 200cals)
* cuccumber with curd (~ 50cals)
*corny free bar (~ 65 cals)
* having a grapefruit or a low cal pudding now (~ 80cals)
*40mins muscle training
*150 jumping jacks (rest will follow)
its only 2 days until i'll know my exact weight. and i measured myself at home and wrote it down. i'm going to see how much i lost then. exciting!
its only 2 days until i see my best friend again. i cant believe it. i know, i propably annoy you girls with always mentioning that... sorry. but i am soooo looking forward to seeing her!
i'm going through her facebook photos everyday... and what makes me sad inside is that its true that she's gained over there (australia). i know she's not happy with it. she was a thin girl once, and how can a thin girl ever be happy being fat? she is my best friend, and i want loads of people to look like whales next to me... but not her. course its cool to be the "prettier"/"thinner" one. but i want us to be at least nearly equal. i'm gonna talk to her about that.. and maybe we can lose weight together. i truely wanna help her, because i love her!
but if one thing is sure, then that i am going to put on a lot of weight over that weekend. we're going to get drunk at least twice and then i'll binge with the others. even if i could hold myself back, i will eat the pringles or the chocolate my bestie is going to eat. because i want her to feel home and happy with me.
i'll try to eat not more than 400-500cals over the day, if possible. and i'm going to work harder next week. its worth it.