GOOD GIRL :)

hello all you skinny bitches ;)

the party yesterday was a real succes! i have been working as cashier for one hour and then got in with a friend for a while, didnt wanna stay too long. i havent been drinking, cause of the calories and also because i didnt feel like (how weird is that??) but i regreted it a little, the music was great and the club was really full- didnt expect that. and you know what girls? i'm geeting prettier aka thinner.
i was used to boys watching me, i mean boys always look at girls with long blonde hair.. but when i was fatter, they didnt really try to talk to me or so. and yesterday it was crazy! like 5 guys tried to flirt with me! yay! :) (i dont care about those guys, not the slightes. but obviously i look better meanwhile! SUCCES!)

today i have been a really good girl to make up for yesterday.

TODAYS INTAKE:

* small portion of my special muesli, sonsisting of yoghurt, few teaspoons of cereals and special k and half a small apple (~ 130cals)
* a few french fries with ketchup (~ max 200cals)
* cuccumber with curd (~ 50cals)
*corny free bar (~ 65 cals)
* having a grapefruit or a low cal pudding now (~ 80cals)

TOTAL: 525cals

TODAYS WORKOUT:

*25mins Crosstrainer
*40mins muscle training
*120 crunches
*150 jumping jacks (rest will follow)

its only 2 days until i'll know my exact weight. and i measured myself at home and wrote it down. i'm going to see how much i lost then. exciting!
its only 2 days until i see my best friend again. i cant believe it. i know, i propably annoy you girls with always mentioning that... sorry. but i am soooo looking forward to seeing her!
i'm going through her facebook photos everyday... and what makes me sad inside is that its true that she's gained over there (australia). i know she's not happy with it. she was a thin girl once, and how can a thin girl ever be happy being fat? she is my best friend, and i want loads of people to look like whales next to me... but not her. course its cool to be the "prettier"/"thinner" one. but i want us to be at least nearly equal. i'm gonna talk to her about that.. and maybe we can lose weight together. i truely wanna help her, because i love her!





but if one thing is sure, then that i am going to put on a lot of weight over that weekend. we're going to get drunk at least twice and then i'll binge with the others. even if i could hold myself back, i will eat the pringles or the chocolate my bestie is going to eat. because i want her to feel home and happy with me.
i'll try to eat not more than 400-500cals over the day, if possible. and i'm going to work harder next week. its worth it.

BAD GIRL

hi loves,
i've been a bad girl today.. and yesterday night.
yesterday night, i didnt have the yoghurt i posted because i thought i'd eat it. no. i had a whole slice of bread with nutella on it. NUTELLA. i was doing so well at the gym and then i binge with nutella. argh!

today i've basicly been at the uni non-stop. i had a 2 hours break wich i spent with my bf, because he lives near the uni. ate at his place also. just came home (its 7pm here) and have to leave in 30mins again. because at 8pm there's a meeting of the radio i started working at. i might be on air next week. exciting! after that meeting i'll be home for maybe an hour and have to leave to work at a party for 1hour again. pretty tough day :)

What's also exciting is that my best friend is coming back on FRIDAY. i missed her sooo much these last months and i cant wait to see her again! i'm so gonna cry.. girlish, i know. so i'll leave my place thursday afternoon and i will stand on WORKING SCALES on friday. i'm so excited about that too! i hope with what i ate today and yesterday i didnt gain! cross your fingers for meee girlies :)

TODAYS INTAKE:

*small bowl of cereals (~150cals)
*small pretzel at the uni (~130cals)
*salad an bowl of pasta with tomato sauce at my bf's (~220cals)
*corny free (65cals)
*choco drink (nooo idea. say 130cals)
*piece of chocolate (~150cals)

TOTAL: 750cals
and i think i will have something around 60cals later. argh! TOO MUCH!

TODAYS EXERCISE:

nothing yet!!!
jumping jacks and crunches will follow.



i'm really sorry.. i'm not thinspiring at all lately. i'm hoping that tomorrow i will do better. i feel like that chocolate is already turning into flabby fat-rolls. why did i eat it?! i am so stupid. i really feel like going to the gym and work out until i collapse to make up for that. but no time. TOMORROW!!!!

i'll cheer you all up

a lot of you lovelies have been complaining about having their period and therefor not losing weight. i know that totally sucks. and i wanna support you girls.. but since i cannot make your period go away, i got you this:

i'm taking the pill. as you propably know, you take it 3 weeks and then you stop taking it for 1 week. and in this week you will have your period, because of the lack of hormons in your body. pretty easy so far. well. not if your body is a little weird and you feels like dont feed it enough. like my stupid body obviously does. so it just decided to start my period NOW. it was due in exactly one week. yay?! i had that once.. and i know what it means. i will have a lighter period than usually. yay?! it will stay for 2 weeks. TWO, t w o weeks.
i hope u all feel better with your few days period-time now :)

I was sticking to the PLAN today.. but i am a little upset with myself cause i ate things i didnt wanna eat just because everyone did. argh!

TODAYS INTAKE:

* special K with yoghurt and half an apple (~200cals)
* half a plate of spaetzle(noodles) with cheese-sauce at the uni-cafeteria (~ 250cals)
* white chocolate with strawberry ( no idea. say 150cals to be safe.)
* yoghurt (80cals)

TOTAL : 680cals

TODAYS WORKOUT:

*200 Jumping Jacks (50 will follow)
*120 Crunches
*25 mins on the Crosstrainer (going realy fast!)
*45mins muscle training
*1,5km fast walking

I really did great at the gym today. i have so much to tell you girls, but i have no time right now... but tomorrow night, i promise!

think thin!

THE PLAN:

elegantthinspo and me made up a plan for this week, so that we stay strong and lose a lot (hopefully.) we've already done a liquid-fast day wich worked fine together, so i'm pretty optimistic. so here's our masterplan ;) :

EXERCISE:

*250+ Jumping jacks per day. (like 50 in the morning, 50 before lunch, 50...u get the idea)
*100+ Crunches per day
*swimming/gym whenever we find the time. (for me: gym at least every 2nd day)

FOOD:

*max intake of 1000cals. (thats doable!)
*try to stay around 600cals
*if u mess up one day and eat more than 1000, the next day you eat 700 minus the extra-cals. (if u eat 1200 one day, the next will be: 700-200= 500cals)

i know, to some of you skinnies this might sound ridiculously easy. but i think that it is so important to stay motivated during all of this. so putting goals too high is not what we should do. This plan is definately doable, and thats the good thing about it. it will feel great when this week is over ( Friday) and we can proudly say: We did it.

So here's the stuff about today:

TODAYS INTAKE:

*small portion of noodles with tomato sauce (max 200cals)
*ice cream at the park (180cals)
*another tiny portion of noodles with sauce and peppers (max 180cals)
*curd with fresh strawberries and sugar (max 120 cals)

TOTAL: 680cals

TODAYS EXERCISE:

*120 Crunches
...
THINSPO:



been on the toilet today. followers know what i mean. yay :)

underestimation

weeell. we went out yesterday, and we got free cocktails, cause we were the birthday girls. i had like 3 and then wine and vodka..... i totally underestimated everything. i used to drink A LOT. like really a lot. but i havent been drinking for quite a while now (didnt feel like going out) and i havent been drinking on a 500-600cals stomach.
we were dancing all night, that burned some cals i hope! but then we went to mc donalds!!! you heard right. drunk, hungry and mc donalds. everyone had burgers. i took french fries and shared them with everyone. but dont really remember how much i actually ate. i felt really sick afterwards. luckily, i threw it all up about 20mins later.
i still had billions auf alcohol-calories. so unnecessary!!
a "friend" of mine asked me if i lost weight yesterday. strange situation. i dont like it when people ask that YET. cause i'm still too fat. i said "erm.. possible." i should have replied "no, actually i just put on a ton the last year. just getting rid of that now." cause thats the truth.

i woke up with an amazingly flat stomach. i love this feeling. and the hip-bones.
but i have to eat something to make the headache go away. i think having something about 250cals is okay.. wont eat dinner then.
update later.
sorry for this strange post. in a hurry again!
love to you all

getting better.

hello loves;

1. same problem with the new scales as with the old ones. it is propably the floor. a live in a centuries old house (Art Nouveau, LOVE IT) wich has been renovated a couple of times, i guess 5 years ago was the last time. but i guess its not that easy to make sure that the parquet is 100% even. i'll try the new ones in the bathroom tomorrow and then decide if i give them back or keep them. i so wanna know my exact weight!

2. you guys are lucky i didnt post this morning. i was so pissed because of several things.
- i had to walk through the center of the city (empty stomach) at around 12:30pm. EVERYONE was munching. pizza, french fries, ice-cream....no suprise most of them were fat. and skinny people munching stuff like that dont only make me jealous (why are they so lucky?!) but they also make me wanna scream at them:" Dont u appreciate being thin?? There are girls working their ass off to become what you are. Appreciate that NOW!"
-then, the thing with my scales.
- and most of all: I am ffing taking laxatives since monday and i havent been on the toilet since then!!!

yeah lucky i didnt post then. just been at the toilet. :)

3. todays a good day, too! i didnt do any workout but i carried shopping bags filled with veggies and bottles through the town and i'm going to do my crunches later. i also didnt eat much.

4. TODAYS INTAKE:

*1/4 apple with low fat yoghurt and 3 spoons muesli and 3spoons special K (~150cals)
* smaaaaall portion special K with 0,1% fat milk (~85cals)
* small portion special K with 0,1% fat milk (~115cals)
* bowl of cauliflower soup i made yesterday (max.50cals)

TOTAL: 400cals

my bf is coming over in a few and i guess i'll make him some fresh strawberry-curd, with low fat curd and low fat yoghurt. going to try that then too and might have a mini-portion of the soup again, because it is sooo yummie. (i love it when things i cooked taste so good. makes me proud of myself and even more proud if it barely contains calories and is soo healthy.)

TODYAS EXERCISE:

*120 Crunches
*40mins walking with heavy bags (does that count??)

5. oh and i know, you all must be thinking she is spending sooo much time with her bf, what about friends? i usually hang out with friends at about as much as with my bf. i just dont feel like being "girly" and the only one i wanna have around me is him. cancelled on my friends yesterday also. but tomorrow me and a friend are going to celebrate our birthdays (mine was in march) i'm gonna see everyone and it will be fine. exept for the fact that we have to get totally drunk. what wouldnt be bad if there wasnt the fact that alcohol contains like billions of cals per ml. so i'm going to try to stay under 500 again tomorrow (400 would be even better) and get drunk the evening. shouldnt need more than 500cals to get drunk, right?

6. i totally feel better meanwhile. propably because this is my 2nd "less-than-600-day" and maybe because there are only 7 days to go until i see my beloved bestie again. missed her so much. oh, and that mean 7 days until i can step on some reliable scales. EXCITING!!

Skinny thoughts to all of you!



this is not where i live, but my house is build in the same style, as mentioned "Art Nouveau". (Keep reading my blog and your art and history grades propably will improve.. haha )

BREAD IS LUXURY II

i did pretty good today. after taking a shower i got hungry again but i fell asleep in my bed. woke up 1 1/2h later and started cooking cauliflower-soup. had a portion, went out and started working then. now i'm having a low cal yoghurt in wich i put little peach-pieces.
soooooo, in numbers:

TODAYS INTAKE:

*cereals (~150cals)
*cauliflower-soup (~75cals)
*corny free (~ 65cals)
*yoghurt with peach (dunno really. say ~130cals max)

TOTAL: 420cals yet.

TODYAS WORKOUT:

35mins running
120 crunches

going to stay at my bf's playe tonight. might have to eat something there. i'll try to stay under 550 anyway! and i guess i wont we able to step on my scale tomorow then, pretty logical, since i'm at my bfs house.
stay strong my beloves skinnies!